Saturday, March 19, 2005

Saturday Musings

So - update on the dating life. Earlier this week went down and visited the pediatrics chica after she had gotten back from a pretty hellish day at work. Brought 2 beers, chatted for around an hour (polite, almost too nice conversation), but again, I feel like I am getting no closer to her than when we first went out. Noticed a dozen gorgeous long stemmed red roses in a vase on her coffee table. When I slyly mentioned "nice flowers!" she only replied "well a girl needs her flowers!". Between this and the mentions of going out to dinner with a "friend" a few times, and the days and days before she returns a phone call, I figure she is dating someone else. Why won't she come out and just tell me or give me some more definitive hints? She knows I am into her. Annoying/Aggravting. Anyways, I have put her on the back burner for now while I pursue two other promising dates I went out on Wednesday and Thursday nights. I'll write on them later, but for now have to attend a fellow colleagues birthday party! Haven't gone out in a while, so tonight should be fun! Some wine should be good for me...

Monday, March 14, 2005

Happy Days! Happy Days!

Today is a happy day. First, I am on my first day of Anesthesiology as part of my intern year rotations, in my own department, with my own peeps, with my own attendings (even though none of them know me). The one time this year where I am "home". Attended 3 hours of lecture this morning, on cardiac physiology and most of it very useful, on the utility and function of the Swan Ganz PA catheter in clinical situations. Afterwards, they sent me home! Hence the blogging at 2 pm.

Once again, can't believe the year has gone by so fast! Unbelievable. After these 3 weeks in Anesthesiology, I only have 5 weeks of surgery (bleh), 3 weeks of ER (even more bleh), and 3 weeks of NICU (mini bleh), and 2 weeks of vacation (YIPPEEE!!). And spring is just around the corner. All of which adds up to a happy me, after finishing 9 straight weeks of ICU.

As for an update on my love life - things have been of uber molassas quality with the pediatric intern. I call her, and get a response 5 days later. The messages however, are sweet and sound like she is still interested. Therefore I have no idea what the situation is. Things can't be going that well however, if a girl is waiting days and days to get back to me, regardless of how busy she is. So here is the summary of this relationship:

Boy meets girl with her friend in my lobby (girl lives in same building, 100 ft apart, 2 floors down)

Boy talks to girl briefly at hospital resident get together at local bar. Girl spends rest of night talking to asshole surgery resident (ASR) who has live in girlfriend but still trying to hit on her

Boy gets invited to girl's birthday dinner week later, ASR is sitting rigth next to her, I sit on the other side and we vye for her attention all night long. She splits time 50/50, friends tell me she's interested in me.

Boy plays phone tag with girl for week and a half. She cooes "look forward to hearing from you when I get back!"

Girl goes to California for week and a half

Boy calls girl, have nice 30 minute conversation, asks for date and is granted without hesitation

Boy and girl have excellent date (see previous posts) but nothing occurs (no motion to kiss, hold hands etc)

Girl calls boy next day to thank for date

Boy calls girl saying "I burned you a CD of the jazz you liked at my place for your evening runs by the river, let me know if I can fix your Ipod"

Girl is on night float for a week, calls back 5 days later saying "you are so sweet and considerate, blah blah blah, call me back"

Boy calls girl back the same day, twiddles thumbs for few days waiting for response (none yet), and writes this blog.

Well, it feels good that I wrote this all down. Does anyone from an outside perspective know how to read this? BTW, boy has nice abs.

Hello Jill!

First of all, I want to thank Jill M for her very thoughtful and sincere email. Jill - if you are reading this, I wish you the best of luck in the rest of your burgeoning medical career. It seems like you are truly going into it for the right reasons, which many of us have lost sight of in the grueling process of residency. How many people spend their vacations volunteering in a foreign country to set up orphanages? You are truly a better person than me, and probably 99% of schmucks out there.

When counseling potential medical students, I generally discourage them and tell them to do something else with their life, unless they have a compelling story or heartfelt reason to be a physician. Jill - you would win over any medical school admission with your story - it was certainly better than mine, just out of high school at age 16 with zero experience in real life doing it because my daddy told me so. Lets face it, you don't know shit when you are 16. Now at 26 (sheesh i'm old), I look back and wonder what might of been if I wasn't in an accelerated medical program. Any regrets? Absolutely not - I believe I am good at what I do and so far very content with my life. I probably would of been a good engineer or pianist. I was not "destined" to be in medicine.

Jill - you might be 35 with 200k in debt with a child you did not see much growing up when all is said and done, but know that I support you!

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Update Part II

In terms of my personal life, I believe I have finally settled into a social niche that I am comfortable with. A group of reliable friends and a big improvement in my love life. No girlfriend yet, but I have been dating quite a lot. When it rains, it pours. After going through quite a dry spell, I am currently dating 3-4 women, thanks also in help to online service. Out of the 3 I am truly interested in considering a relationship with one of them, a fellow intern at my hospital. We went out on a fabulous date to a great sushi restaurant in Midtown this past week, which I have been wanting to take her to for a while now. She is gorgeous, smart, and our conversation flowed as freely as the bottle of wine prior and the 2 bottles of sake during dinner. The only issue is how busy she is and how slow this whole courting process has become - I've known her for a few months now and was only able to finally get a date this week. Now she is on night floats until Saturday morning and won't be available until next week. She's worth the pursuit however! I feel like with the other women I'm seeing are just biding my time until something truly fantastic comes along. Not like I have anything better to do!

Long Overdue Update

Wow its been over a month since I've written an entry. Things have been going well since I last wrote, and perhaps that is why I feel less compelled to rant and rave. First of all, I really can't believe its already March and I'm 3 months from completing my internship! Hooray for me. I can honestly say that this year has been fantastic for me, only in a few occasions have I truly felt stressed out and unhappy. Not to say that my internship is without problems, I feel at times as a transitional intern we can get lost in the fray due to not belonging to any specific department. I must however say that the ICU feels like home to me, now that I've done 9 straight weeks of it. On my hours log I average 70 hours a week, which is great in comparison to any ICUs out there, but I have to say that I've logged a tremendous amount of sleep debt over these months. In general however, my colleagues are excellent, most of the nursing and attending staff in the ICU is excellent, which makes these 630 hours seem a lot more bearable.